Sunday, January 10, 2010

"Come...lets explore this world together..."

Dinner time. Mom, Dad, me and someone else. Everything is same...just as always...except this new person. Who is this? Who is the new person on the table? By her looks...she's older than me. perhaps a couple of years...no more...around 6yrs maybe. A lady...someone i look up to...but who is she? who? Mom n dad are behaving so strangely. As if, they've known her for years...and i'm so happy. Why am i getting the feeling that i've known her all my life? she's someone close to me....i know that. she even looks familiar...she is very close to me. She's someone who cares for me... But, who is she?
She started helping mom serve the food. damn...didnt i always do it...?? who is she? she picked up my plate and served the food on it. placed it back infront of me and smiled. And then i understood....it was me...just an older version...as if my elder sister...loving me, caring for me.

and that was my dream...the one i saw this morning. strange...how something we long for...the thoughts that we push to our subconscious gets transformed into our dreams.
Am an only child and i've always longed for a sibling. Always.The feeling of always having someone to fall back upon...the feeling of being protected...of having someone to stand in when mom n dad are not around...
I have always longed for an older sibling. but a younger one would have also been good enough...but alas i have none.

Its a special bond..very special. A bond that can hardly be explained in words. What i felt in my dream today...i'd never felt that before...not for the thousands of cousins i have...not even for my nearest n dearest cousins. What i felt was a strange warmth...

Two brothers...hand in hand. A promise of togetherness...of closeness...of concern... Its a strength...
its a love so very pure...
its a feeling so very dear...
its a bond...
its brotherhood.
Those fights and squabbles...those kicks and punches...its all love...a strange love. default type...unconditional...

"Brother, if you get lost in the crowd....and never want to be found...I promise to lose myself with you...i'll never leave your side. You will never be alone. Come...lets explore this world together..."

 photo courtsey: Anirban Saha

5 comments:

  1. hmmm i see staying alone for a day, and our world around.... is having effect on you. you know my feelings regarding this...

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  2. It does feel lonely at times to be the only child of ur parents..even i have felt the same way..i always love to fight but i don't have any1 at home with whom i can do that 24X7..and i know that if i had an elder sibling then i wud have got the benefit of winning out in any damn thing coz its d elders who r always blamed and the its the younger ones who always gets the sympathy from the parents..atleast this is what i have always seen in other families..

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  3. @anirbansaha
    he he he....yes...guess so!

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  4. @aniket
    yep...i would have loved to be the younger the sibling...it would have been so much fun...
    but...

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  5. short of words this time...

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