2009 AD: A look back

its Christmas eve tonight...my first christmas eve without my Grandma....its my first Christmas Eve without a lot of things. but i have a lot more than what i've lost this year. My profits and savings count...not my losses.
still let me elaborate on both.
profit and savings first:
there are some people i need to thank. in fact 4 friends. without them i would have had successfully committed suicide(!!) this year.
Prantika...thank you for making me feel acceptable. i had lost faith in myself...n you know why. thank you for choosing me over others. you are the only person who has made me feel at home in my own room. Thank You.
Anirban...thank you for the very many things that you don't even know that you done for me..n i have no words to explain them to you. Thank you for being my friend and for introducing me to a gem, Praveen.
Praveen....thank you for making me feel happy. i wish i had a brother of my own like you. better still, i wish you were my own younger brother.
Sushmi...thank you, as always...for being by my side and kicking me hard whenever i reach the peak of sanity!! Insanity rocks! Thank you for everything Sush.

the year 2009 was a year of changes...of tears...that were wiped by more than one pair of hands. of joy shared by more than i can count. this was a year of friendship, of love...of bliss...of a happiness i'd long lost touch with.
2009 renewed my faith in life.
this year i am back in form...am my crazy self once again...no hypocrisy...no diplomacy.

few complaints....i would rather let them be. its better to bury them in this year and move ahead. its better not to remember how people you trust can turn selfish and purposefully take away from you what you truly deserve. its better not to remember how someone can shut their door on your face. its better not to knock on their door again. its better not to remember rude remarks from the people you considered friends. its better not to remember how they talk behind your back and apologise to you later only if you somehow get to know about it. its better to forget that they refuse to understand you and the reason why you do certain things. its better to forget if they suddenly avoid you. its better to forget and forgive.
Its Christmas...the season of love n joy. its the festival of giving without expecting to receive...
2010 is just a week away...a new year...its going to be a new beginning.
my prayer this Christmas
"Lord, bless the people around me. make their dreams come true. Bring to them joy, hope and love. Protect them from all harm. If they make a mistake forgive them and help them to forgive others' mistakes. Give them courage to face the truth. Walk with them. Hold their hands when they need You. Bless my friends. bless my family. bless the world. Lord, protect my happiness and its source.
Ahmen"

friendship aaj kal...

Remember K2H2...srk had said, "pyaar dosti hai"...and assuming the statement to be correct....i say,"dosti pyaar hai"...
friendship is perhaps the most beautiful of all emotions...it is the culmination of everything precious to the human soul...love...care...companionship...
our quest for true friendship carries on throughout life...we search for someone who would accept us as we are...without any terms and conditions...without any rules and regulations... someone who would pull us back on the right track when we stray...someone who would listen to our mundane talks...who would sit with us quietly when we want to be left alone...and hold our hand when we feel lost.....
once while describing me...a friend had praised me for being a good and patient listener. yes...i really can sit and hear anyone talk endlessly on anything... i've accquired this habit primarily to accumulate new ideas and assimilate them...and of course in the process make new friends...!!
if you want to talk about racing cars...am there for you...you wanna talk about literature...i'm there for you...politics...i'm there...social issues...i'm still there...creativity...yes...i'm there...
if you talk in french i'll learn it for you...just to be your friend!
i feel, mutual respect and selflessness are two virtues that a true friend must possess. possessiveness and overprotectiveness can be fatal to a friendship.
i'm lucky to be blessed with a true friend....we are poles apart but we've been best buddies for the past 20 and a half yrs!! we've know each other from the time when we didnt even know what friendship was! we've had our own share of fights and quarrels...even battles!! but nothing could separate us...!! she's always there to hear me out...no matter how weird or stupid my ideas are. with her in my life i have no worry...no fear of being lonely...!! i dont care who calls me arrogant...i dont care who calls me ill-tempered...i dont care who considers me fake!! she's accepted me as i am....and i consider myself lucky to have found a friend in her...that too so early in life. i never had to embark on my quest to find a friend...she's always been there for me. quite literally 'cause she was there even before i'd realised her presence in my world...am lucky to be blessed with her friendship...thank you God! thank you Sushmi....love you buddy boo!!
Be it aaj or kal...the feeling of friendship never changes! In all the ages Friendship remains its same selfless caring self!